The letter 

Damn girl you could’ve been the one now all this love shit feel kind of dumb I don’t know why I try to be with you that shit hurt me bad now I’m just a lame with a open heart I need someone to help with my self esteem issues see you didn’t even know that I’m not confident in myself Natalie keeps telling me that I will be great but I tell her that I’m not gonna be here that long and that scares her it doesn’t scare me because I embrace death because it’s the only thing that’s honest in life, and I get scared at night when I’m in the bed alone I feel as if someone is watching me or something is calling me I still sleep with the lights, I will always be awkward I don’t see myself the way people see me I feel bad because I failed 3 classes and I feel as if I won’t be better then Donald and that’s the ultimate goal is being better then my role model. I kiss girls that’s bad for they always hurt me I can’t find the right one well at least we know Raevon wasn’t the one for me we know nyomi wasn’t nor kaila nor Aaliyah or Adasia, I feel that I can’t be done I don’t feel safe when I’m around my father I feel worse when I’m alone and when I’m alone 1 tear rolls down my left I call that the silent cry because no one can hear me when I was talking pills in 7th grade that wasn’t a joke I tried to end it all but I was scared then but now I’m just so lost in my world that everyone around will never know what’s the best for me only I know my name is Tahj not the world not the answer I feel as if everytime I write a new poem I feel sick I really do because I’m never sleep I always throw up man when ask for help no one picks up the fun I’m glad she didn’t show up because now i know she’s not the I hope she’s doing fine this not a cry for help this how I feel this is the last of me being a sweet dude now I’m gonna become a asshole just to fuck the world up. Because no one gives fuck about my opinion I don’t like it when my parents try to be in my business and know who I’m talking that shit erks my dad called me a dumbass 😒 will I wanna see him write a poem with out it rhyming this is just my vent because to be realWith you.
Your the only one who will see this 
Natalie.

Moon and stars

I’m laying down on my roof the air is very crisp this time of year I love staring at the stars and the moon as they pass by me I ask myself why is something so beautiful so far away that I can’t grab it but only look at it from a far like a infinite structure of priceless art, I love the sky I wish I could just float with the stars,

My world is so far even though it seems like I’m close to someone we are a million light years away from each other you have to enter my psychic to understand the passion I have. 🌕🌕⭐️ 

waking up next to you

Baby i see u wake up early in the morning fix ur hair, putpn make up even tho i tell u don’t need it you  ignore me i walk up to you and say I’ve waited for you since i saw u in ms. Hills class back in grade school you reply by saying you never told me this before i replied by saying i didn’t have to your soul knew but that was 20 years ago but u tell me to go get dressed i get dressed you walk up to me in a bra and paintes and give me a kiss on the lips your lips tasted like mango toothpaste wich is your favorite i ask you why is ur hair always flawless in a messy bun you say because im natural im the air you breathe im the water you sip i am the light you use to read im the girl you love more then your self im the mother of our unborn daughter

fuck

Its sad how people think their close to me but they are so far away its like my parents think they’re close to me but in reality they are so far away and im pushing them away from me i don’t want people getting attached to me because we are all just gonna die and loving people is just a waste of time it just seems like im gonna live forever and everyone is gonna die i might enjoy it idek anymore but i feel like the world is changing its progress that’s the only thing that’s real to me but thats how i view it what if the day die is a wensday but it feels like Monday then whats the point of living if everything doesn’t make sense and ik people are gonna say everything in life isn’t always gonna make sense.

Sad vibes

I’m always theguy sitting here with a open heart abd every time i let someone in they always walk right by out they never wanna stay and ask uf im ok they say im special but they don’t really mean it huh? I guess i just can’t keep a girl in my life i guess its my fualt for not having what they want or have i just wanna make u happy but i can’t because i never got the chance u have a guy u u had relations with that i can never have with i just want one chance to make u happy a pleas u but i guess i can never get my one shot because he took up all the space sad stories are all i write because thats all i know